I just found out after 25 years of not knowing that I was adopted. I felt the last 25 years of my life was a complete lie. I lost everything my security, my knowing of who I was, trust in people. How could so many people know but I didn't? It's not fair! Why am I the last one to know? I felt so betrayed by everyone around me. The biggest feeling I felt was betrayal all these people that claimed to love me hid this from me. Why is that? Then came the anger, the bitterness, anxiety, insecurity, unable to trust, confused but most of all lost. I lost me and everything I thought was true. And for the first time I felt alone I felt all by myself and sinking. The rug was pulled under me and i kept being pushed down. But slowly I have came to terms with this news and I have decided to embrace it and learn about me and take the journey to discover the questions so I don't wonder anymore. As time go on you will learn more and discover along with me what has and come to be of things. And if you are in this type of situation you aren't alone there are so many and all the feelings you are feeling are completely normal.
❤️Kalah
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